Blog (back up)

It’s short but I wanted to share a trailer I made for a mini-doc I’m stitching together from the process of diving head-first into composing, directing and producing my silent headphone opera, THE WAR BRIDE.  I hope you enjoy this sneak peak via the following trailer.  The full documentary should be ready in early 2020.  
And that’s a wrap!  What an amazing month in Orlando for Fringe festival.  I worked with an amazing team that sang so well for 14 performances of our immersive “silent” headphone musical! 



Thanks to Voyage Houston for the sweet interview.  I’m excited to announce a new concert in Houston that will be a follow up to my ‘6-Pianos in Surround Sound’…


“Best of all, Felix’s goosebump-raising score offers an eerie idea of what it might sound like if the composers of Les Miz wrote a musical version of The Exorcist.” You can still see the “silent” musical Wed-Sun this week at Fringe!






6-Pianos in Surround Sound (Houston)

[click on piano for more photos]


So thankful that Great Day Houston had me on their show to talk about 6-Pianos in Surround Sound. Please come support and raise awareness by coming to our free event this Saturday May 4th at Sawyer Yards (1502 Sawyer St) at 7pm or by donating with this button.  All support goes towards the further restoration and delivery of the pianos. 

This Saturday May 4th, 6-Pianos in Surround Sound is here at Sawyer Yards (1502 Sawyer St). 7PM.  It’s free and open to the public and we’ll have free wine, whiskey and beer.  Jesse Sendejas at the Houston Press interviewed me for this wonderful encapsulation of the heart and soul of the project.  Click on the photo for the entire story.





Texas Skies is a composition written for 2 pianos and quadraphonic speaker set that I premiered in Denmark at SPOT Festival in May of 2018. The pianists featured are Tanja Zapolski and Rikke Sandberg as seen in this video. In order, the four movements are: West Texas, East Texas, The Panhandle, The Border. Texas Skies will be performed for the first time in Texas at Flight Gallery in San Antonio on Friday March 22nd!


What do you get when you have 2 pianos and 15 artists from various genres in the same room?  We’ll find out Friday March 22nd at Flight Gallery in San Antonio!  More details coming soon…


I’m thrilled to announce the music and video release of my headphone opera, The War Bride. The ‘live’ opera is now available on Spotify, iTunes, Apple Music, etc!  The video is a montage of the different movements and is on YouTube.  

My residency for composers was featured on KMFA.  Check it out!!!



This was a very exciting project I had to keep under the wraps but now that the live premiere is out of the way, I wanted to share the video for a music collaboration I did up in Austin with the Motion Capture and Dance departments up in Austin at UT. It was my first time collaborating with both Mocap and dance and I’m really excited about the outcome. Check the video when you get a chance. Props to Deepak Chetty for the amazing directing and Dorothy O’Shea Overbay on the choreography. 

Here is a photo gallery from the premiere of my interactive headphone opera, THE WAR BRIDE. Click on the photo to open the gallery. 



Bravo to soprano Elise Miller and tenor James Dykman for waking up early this morning to perform an excerpt from THE WAR BRIDE, to promote the premiere this Saturday at Luminaria Festival.  Click on the photo for the performance!  
AMAZING article from Texas Public Radio that perfectly encapsulates what I’m trying to accomplish not only with my headphone opera but in my music career as a whole.  Thanks to Nathan Cone for taking the time to interview me.  



I am thrilled the time has finally come to premiere my headphone opera titled, THE WAR BRIDE.  This is the story of my late grandmother, Jean Groundsell, who grew up as a poor teenage British girl living in Chichester when WWII broke out in England. Follow her brave journey as she boards the S.S. Saturnia and ventures to America in 1945. The concert is November 10th at Hemisfair Park during Luminaria Festival.  Two performances run at 7:30 and 8:30.  See map just below for exact location of THE WAR BRIDE in Hemisfair Park. 
OK, so I have to admit that I really dig that the Current called me a “Renegade” composer.  That just has a ring to it and I’d never give myself a nickname. I also really dig the way that the visual component for Yachting with the Kennedy’s came out.  I mean those gold toilets look siiiick!  Here I am in Denmark hanging with such an amazing array of talented composers and feeling good about the immersive experience that came out of the performance last Saturday.  If you came, I hope you took something home with you.  And if you didn’t…well…tough luck!  But you can read the Currents preview HERE.  And click on the photo below to see some of the action. After Denmark I have concerts coming up in Orlando and in San Antonio.  Here they are… (for addresses of performances go to my TOUR pageOctober 20: Immerse Festival in Orlando – new choral work titled Orlando Unite
October 27: Music in the Park in San Antonio – new works for percussion on bamboo, megaphone choir & 6 sided keboard
November 10: Luminaria Festival in San Antonio – Premiere of my Headphone Opera




After Orlando it was a relatively quiet summer. I spent a lot of summer composing new material for my Headphone Opera and this beast – the 6-Sided keyboard. I’m excited to premiere it throughout the fall. I’ll post some cool updates on the Headphone Opera and the 6-Sided Keyboard.


My first time in Orlando was quite the success.  I brought my Opera on a Bus to a new audience and it got raving reviews and a ton of coverage.  Click on the photo for the Orlando Sentinel review and click this link for a review by Telemundo.  
* MAY 22ND – HEADPHONE OPERA coming this fall…
I woke up to friends’ texts of this article that came out today in the San Antonio Express-News. Went and found a few physical copies to save for my mama.  You can read the online article HERE
I had 3 intimate concerts at SPOT Festival in Denmark and what a great surprise to have journalist, David Fricke of Rolling Stone Magazine fame, pop into one of them.  I ran into David later at the festival and we had some good conversation about music.  While I know, modern classical music is not David’s preferred choice of music, it was nice to hear him compliment the piece so eloquently. What he shared I’ll save as private….
Here is an audience participation piece using dog toys, magazines, pens and voice. I did with From Those Who Follow the Echoes at San Antonio Museum of Art last month. 
My fave part is around the 1:40 where a combination of the dog toys and whistling created such a reverberous sound!
Film Festival Today interviewed me recently about film composing and featured me on their homepage today. Personally I thought it was one of my better interviews.  It’s a quick read if you wanna scan it.
I released my first new recording since my symphony, Neon Heaven in 2016.  This is a new single called Adagietto.  It’s sung in Italian by Candice Jackson.  Adagietto will eventually be for full symphony and choir for my 3rd symphony. I just need to find the money to record this new symphony but this give you an idea.  Here is the video shot at Cacophony Recorders in Austin, TX.  If you’d like to purchase the track it’s on iTunes & for streaming on Spotify.  
Edmond Ortiz interviewed me on a new work I’ll be premiering at Luminaria Contemporary Arts Festival in November thanks to the Artist Foundation of San Antonio. I’m just getting started in the writing & logistical processes. Should be a wild ride. 


*** UPDATE:  New Photo Gallery HERE
This Tuesday at the San Antonio Museum of Art, I’m premiering a new work for dance, theatre and voice. Move through space and time during a collaborative performance by local “street” choir, From Those Who Follow the Echoes, and San Antonio Dance Umbrella on Tuesday March 13th at the San Antonio Museum of Art. Original music and choreography will be performed in select museum spaces that tell a story of San Antonio’s future inspired by its 300-year history. Local actors, Brian Caron and Marcos Cervantes, will guide the narrative performance as an astronaut, philosopher and conquistador. 
From Those Who Follow the Echoes, re-imagine unique spaces for their performances by incorporating elements of movement, space and depth. For this performance at SAMA, musicians will be singing and moving in a coordinated manner, actors will serve as the backdrop to the music and dancer Fa Winsborough will improv in select areas. A two-part finale will begin as an audience participation piece that will lean on patrons to perform musical cues using dog toys, clicking pens and magazines while the choir harmonizes. The second part is an ode to the late Andy Kaufman, as everyone will be invited to SAMA’s courtyard for cookies while the actors perform their final lines.




Yep, it’s that time of year again where everything seems to get jumbled together.  In the span 9 days I have quite a bit.  For starters, on March 4th at 3:30pm, I’m producing the 3rd edition of Indie Orchestra Night, where bands are backed up for a 100-piece choir & symphony.  It’s the brainchild of myself and conductor, Brent Baldwin.  The event page is HERE
A music score I composed for the film, An Uncertain Future, screens at SXSW Film this year.  For showtimes, click on the logo below.  I also have a music performance for my piece, Ex-Nihilo, at the Austin Creative Alliance showcase on March 11th at 3pm.  THEN on the 13th at 7pm, I have a big concert at San Antonio Museum of Art for my mini-opera.  Hold your breath…
I will do a full blog post about the entire Keep Composers Weird residency when it’s finished in a few days, but I wanted to just post this write up from the Daily Texan.  Click on the photo to read the full story.  

HUGE week coming up for me.  I’m hosting my residency, Keep Composers Weird, in Austin TX in which 4 composers will be visiting and I’ll be throwing a concert for them at the Blanton Museum of Art on Thursday January 18th as part of the Beat the Rush series.  Then on Saturday I have a concert with my choir, From Those Who Follow the Echoes, in San Antonio at the Mayor’s Ball.  BUT here is a little video of our first conductor for FTWFTE, Luis Corpus, in slo-mo to an unreleased song titled, Mur Mur Maids. 
So apparently the video for my Pecha Kucha talk back in August came out.  I stumbled upon it while looking up info. on the upcoming one.  Here it is. Hope you enjoy. 


I once wrote a chance piece that required 35 music stands, dice, Christmas lights, duct tape and scissors. Sheet music was cut up, shuffled and taped. Lights directed the performers. The Blanton Museum of Art let me premiere it. Brent Baldwin conducted it.  Caleb B. Kuntz filmed it. Performed by Luis Corpus, Mark Ford, Wayne Myers, Scott Biggs, Aron Frank
What a whirlwind!  A day after my bus-opera I jumped on a plane to Australia, for two concerts for my 6-Piano Project.  I haven’t seen an ounce of Melbourne because it’s been so crazy with set up and rehearsals!  But alas, they are complete and they were wildly successful.  Time for a few days of relaxation.  Here are a few photos and a short video and then a few videos from the past for reference on the beginning of the 6-Piano Project that has now spanned 3 different countries and 4 different cities (Austin, Barcelona, San Antonio, Melbourne)…






Thanks to James Courtney at the San Antonio Current for the write up today! Please take a gander if you have a few moments. It’s been quite a process organizing it all and it wouldn’t be possible with the dedication from all the singers and contributors in the choir this entire year.  Facebook event click HERE

◊ Saturday October 21st 2017 – San Antonio
When: Saturday 1 pm – 3pm
Where: To see the performance get on the 11A Culture VIA VIVA bus at McNay at 1pm or 2pm AND/OR at Bluestar also at 1pm or 2pm. Ride lasts 30 minutes.


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Waking up early was worth it! Here is the interview and performance we did this morning on WOAI-TV for San Antonio Living to promote VIA VIVA Cultural Adventure with my choir, From Those Who Follow the Echoes on Saturday Oct 21. [Scroll down to see the poster with details on how to attend]

Alas, here it is. I’m extremely nervous about this production. I’ve been talking about wanting to do something like this since I lived in L.A. back in 2014 and now I get the chance. I have no idea how I’m going to pull it off. Two performances will be going on simultaneously in different buses.  We’ll run the entire show twice and hopefully it doesn’t fall apart! If you live in the central Texas or San Antonio area, this is the one you wanna catch. And if you can’t make it, I’ll take your prayers!!!




This weekend I went out with my choir and filmed some videos to promote my Bus Opera
Check one or all of them out.  They are all short.  One is a promo collage, one is a chant and the other a duet.  Don’t forget the performance is on the 11A culture bus in San Antonio on Oct. 21st!   
Here is the premiere of a piece I wrote for this library performance for Kristina Yoder.


Here are some photos from the adventure at the library this weekend. Mark your calendar for our season finale on Oct. 21st: Opera on a Bus by From Those Who Follow the Echoes. FB event page and details coming very very soon…



Join us this Saturday for our performance at the public library in San Antonio (600 Soledad) as we hope to take you on a story adventure throughout the 3 stories of the building they call the “pink enchilada”  [click on pic for FB event]
6-Pianos is going abroad to Melbourne Australia. This will be the 4th installation What started as an experiment at my house in Austin Tex 3 years ago is still scratching and crawling it’s way across the world from San Antonio, Texas to Barcelona, Spain and now Melbourne, Victoria, Australia on October 28th at Collingwood Arts Precinct as part of the Six Piano Project.


I have 3 films that I did the music scores for that will be showcased at the SA Film Festival. The festival starts on August 2nd and goes for a week.  Please go to my TOUR page for info on the screening dates and times or click HERE


The performance for one of my pieces written for six pianos titled, The 6th Piano [The Nothingness], came out today.  Please enjoy…


Stoked to announce that the 3D Sci-fi film, Hard Reset, which I contributed the music score for, is being released on Steam tomorrow July 18th and later on Amazon VOD, iTunes etc. The soundtrack will then come out in August!




7 months of brainstorming and preparation resulted in an hour of musical avant-bliss. A few photos are starting to trickle in and soon I’ll share the footage we filmed. Time to rest for a few hours before I start to dig in to the next grand production





We just had the pleasure of being part of a Christie Blizzard’s performance art piece which will debut on July 13th for ArtPace San Antonio.  Here you can see us as we are being filmed for the release.

Here is a song in which we premiered at the McNay Museum last week.  The song is titled, Alone in Stockholm.  I wrote this movement while on tour last year.  The lyrics are listed in the YouTube video and the full explanation of the piece will be explained when my third symphony is released.  We will perform this concert in the canyon on July 1st so you don’t want to miss it.

I’m thankful and humbled by the eloquent preview by The Rivard Report. We’ve worked hard and are excited about our concert Performance: From Those Who Follow The Echoes at the McNay Art Museum Thursday at 6:30. We hope you can include us in your early evening tomorrow. [Update: The Rivard Report came to the performance and did a review that you can read HERE]


This Saturday I experienced something new in my music career.  I held a rehearsal in a museum during their hours of operation.  The patrons at the McNay were completely unaware this was going to happen and the directors at the McNay Museum expressed their interest in us rehearsing in this capacity in an effort to show our art in the process of it’s creation.  I could tell the choir felt the energy and importance of this process and what this particular concert means.  I was happy they too experienced this and it reminded me of why I started this group that is now a family.  It was to bring something fresh in our lives and the community and I’d say after 8 months we are right on track.  


So here we are again. After an intense filled week of rehearsals and experimenting in search of the right tuning, the 6-piano concert was finally here. It brought me joy to see this special crowd in Barcelona closing their eyes and getting lost as the piano sounds from all corners enraptured them. I leave hoping everyone found something special from their viewpoint. My body as always gave everything in presenting a work and I’m burnt to a crisp but again filled with great emotion. It’s time to relax but my mind is already thinking of new grand ideas. The photos below show the process from meeting with the conductor, to rehearsing, to promoting on the radio, to partaking alone at the dress rehearsal and alas the concert. Thank you Fabricarte and thank you to all that flew in from Texas and Europe to share this experience with me. Until next time…


My first few days in Barcelona have been great. For the most part I have been adjusting to the time change and hanging with my friend Alfonso. Alfonso is my friend whom I met while on tour in China. We toured together for a month with our bands playing in China and Mongolia and it is he that invited me to premiere my 6-Piano concert in Europe. If you have followed my blog, you may have figured out that I actually don’t enjoy traveling without a purpose. A day on the beach and then I’m bored. Of course I’m traveling almost 3-4 months out of the year and I cherish every moment I’m abroad, as I know I’m fortunate. But for the most part I want to grind away on new projects or see the every day life of my friends, and this is a perfect insight full of meeting and connecting with artists.



I apologize for every blog post having a video!  But this one is long overdue.  Finally I was able to edit one of the videos from the premiere of my new choir, From Those Who Follow The Echoes, at Hotel Emma last fall.  With our next performance looming, I wanted to pump this one out.  Come see us on March 2nd at Blue Star Contemporary for the Contemporary Art Month Kick-Off Party in San Antonio.  Click to watch “Fathers & Sons” by yours truly!!!  

2017 is off to a great start.  I wrapped up my first concert of the year with my most experimental composition to date.  The concert was at the Blanton Museum of Art which I have been going to since I was a teenager.  The Blanton curates unique and inspiring music in it’s gallery, so it’s wonderful to partake in the tradition.  For this concert, I was asked to write a new piece to go alongside works I curated for my Keep Composers Weird residency in 2016.  Btw, applications are still being accepted for the 2017 residency, so if you are composer please have a look HERE.  For my piece, I experimented with lights as cues for the players with the goal of exploring music in motion.  I tried various ways of mixing blinking signals and using colored lights for certain cues (as seen here in rehearsals).   Ultimately I ended finding a switch controller where I could manipulate the speed of blinking lights and turn lights on and off.  Each player reacted different to each signal as discussed before the performance.  During the performance the audience actually went inside one of the layers!  I was pleased with the performance as the audience participation meet my expectations of having this be an interactive piece that gave off the feel of an installation.  Performance photos and videos coming soon… 


*  JANUARY 10TH 2017 – FINALLY!…
…the video was posted by Del Mar College for the commissioned work I did in the memory of Eddie Galvan.  This piece was one of my favorite to work on.  I was given 6-8 months but because of an international tour, I procrastinated a bit and crammed it all in a month.  Needless to say, I got very sick after I turned it in.  It has a latin/spanish flavor to it so if you feel like dancin’, give it a swirl 


* DECEMBER 29TH – End of Year Sale

Hopefully it’s not annoying that most of my latest posts have been videos but I’m really enjoying this whole editing gig.  It also allows me to create content on a more frequent basis.  Since this will be my last post of 2016 I wanted to share something special.  This video is a sneak peak at Cacophony in Austin TX during the Neon Heaven session.  I was nervous during this first session as I had never heard my piece sung before but the singers killed it.  We ended up doing 6+ sessions with more singers but this first one really stuck with me.  If you watch until the end, you’ll see me looking a bit nervous.  I hope you enjoy the beauty these singers evoke and may it bring you blessings to your ears and soul and into 2017.  Godspeed!  

* NOVEMBER 3RD 2016 – Immersion & Andy Kaufman 
Those who know me, know that I love Andy Kaufman and although I wasn’t alive to witness his performance art, I have consumed as much as I can via YouTube and reading a plethora of stories and articles. He broke the norm and pushed the limits in his craft. I’m knee deep into my next project and at times I’ve wanted to hide and altogether quit. But I’m reminded that it’s a process. And what fun is creating art if it lacks exploration and experimentation? 
So I basically started my own choir. It’s called From Those Who Follow the Echoes. Talk about a reality show. Cancelations and ghosting galore. But the group that has committed is beautiful and the purpose is to bring people and their stories together. Our first concert is Friday November 11th at Hotel Emma in San Antonio. The choir will be spread out within the Sternewirth room in Hotel Emma with some singers up on the balcony behind the old bar and then the rest being strategically dispersed throughout the space. A small string section will be in the center with the conductor. This performance is immersive with the audience, as attendees will be sitting and standing amongst the performers. THEN…
Here’s where I get Andy Kaufman-esque… We will all jump in a bus for cookies and ice cream while singing (YES a bus! donated by Renewable Republic) and shuttle to the Hays Street Bridge that over looks the Pearl and do a pop-up impromptu performance. 
So PLEASE PLEASE come and join our family, our entourage. It’s going to be special.


Photos from the Immersive Music Experience at Hotel Emma! 


In celebration of “6-Pianos” being nominated for a Lonestar Emmy, David Bukstein at BUK Films put together a live film of the performance in conjunction with Chamber Orchestra of San Antonio Millennial Committee. While “6-Pianos” fell short in it’s quest to win this past weekend, I’m ever grateful to KLRU-TV, Austin PBS, Chelsea Sonnen-Hernandez & Mario Troncoso for the support and collaboration. Featured in the video are conductor Alfonso Fernández Vargas and pianistsJustin Sherburn, Catherine Davis, Jeremy Holmsley, Anna Ford Larson, Aron Frank & Ben Tyler Humphreys. The two pieces I wrote for 6-pianos are titled The Fog The Fall The Rise The Return & The 6th Piano. I hope you enjoy…

***Update*** 6-Pianos has been nominated for a 2016 Lone Star Emmy.  Arts in Context just released a mini-doc that focused on my 6-Piano project in the fall of 2015.  I think this perfectly encapsulates the spirit behind it all.  It was one of the most memorable projects in recent memory.  Through it I connected on a deeper level with old and new friends and community members in North Austin.  It’s inspired me to fully believe that one can truly do anything they put their mind to.  It just takes an idea.  Stop worrying about the money.  Think creatively. Think D.I.Y. I hope you enjoy this piece and it inspires you.  

Feeling very humbled. My favorite classical radio station in the world KMFA, Classical 89.5 featured me for their series “On the Edge”. We talk about seeing my first live concert as a 15 yr old, starting The Noise Revival Orchestra Experience off a craigslist ad, butting heads with conductors, Brent Baldwin & André Lousada, and the inspiring Austin classical scene that was put on the map by guys I respect and follow like Graham Reynolds & Justin Sherburn. Thank you Natalie Zeldin
I’m more than excited to finally release my second symphony, Neon Heaven, on May 14th. I’ll be celebrating the release with a listening party at the Museum of Human Achievement in Austin, TX.  Here is the FB event for the info – Click HERE

I plan on giving more of a back story on the album that was almost never made.  I’m thankful I can share this with you and my new found love for choral music.  Check out the artwork below designed by Ben Humphries.  The album will be live on Spotify and iTunes soon, but for now check out samples on my SOUNDCLOUD.  





Tonight is the night! Classical Music Kegger 2.0 in San Antonio. Here is a great feature the local San Antonio news did on the event.


I’m back in the USA and finally have a little more time to reflect on my experience in Mongolia.  It was a very unique experience working with the Mongolia Philharmonic and one I’ll hold close to me for various reasons.  The press coverage was overwhelming.  I did close to 10 different interviews. I’m still tracking down some of the content but I wanted to share an interview on TV (skip to 2:10) and newspaper (see below).  And then check out the photos of me working with the orchestra and giving a huge thank-you-hug to the conductor.  For additional photos go to my FB or Flickr


I’m in Mongolia for the first time.  It’s been a blast.  Quite the change of pace from chaotic China!  But I love both.  China was great to keep my rock ‘n’ roll fantasy alive but it’s such a thrill to be working on my symphony, The Curse the Cross & the Lion with the Mongolian State Philharmonic in Ulaanbaatar.  The concert is on March 19th and so far the rehearsals have gone well.  Of course there have been many communication problems, but with music being the bonding language, all settles well.  The press has been buzzing about this concert.  I’ve already done five interviews for TV, radio and print.  I’ll share those as they come out.  For now, here is the promo video…

* MARCH 9th 2016 – The Noise Revival Orchestra China Tour
FINALLY I have a small break to post some pictures. Every day it’s travel, sound check, concert, little sleep, wake up early, trains and planes, sound check….but it’s been a blast so far. I waited 4 years to make my return to China touring with The Noise Revival Orchestra. Here are some photos halfway in… 
[For more photos go to www.Facebook.com/TheNoiseRevival]


I am off to China and Mongolia for the month of March!  Why you ask?  For music!  In China I’ll be playing guitar and singing with my band The Noise Revival Orchestra.  This will be our 3rd tour in Asia and 2nd in China.  Here is video montage of our 2012 tour in China (CLICK HERE).  Then, I’ll be traveling to Mongolia to work the Mongolian Philharmonic Orchestra as they prepare to perform my 1st symphony, The Curse the Cross & the Lion in the cities of Ulaanbaatar and Darkhan.  I have a lot on my plate leading up to this trip and even more when I get back.  But I have to follow the music and it’s on it’s way east!

* DECEMBER 10TH 2015 – MINNESOTA VIKINGSTHRILLED to share a music project I just finished for the Minnesota Vikings featuring Blair Walsh. When I was a kid, I often imagined how exciting it would be to my music featured or used by a sports organization. I think I even emailed Mark Cuban once, but that’s for another story! Special thanks to those who helped in the recording; Aron Frank & Jeff Elliott on violins & Amber Nepodal on horns. Soooo it’d mean a lot if you took a minute to check out this video and bask in the epic-ness of kicking.Go Vikes!

* NOVEMBER 22nd 2015 – Good Morning Texas


This is after the fact but I wanted to share this really cool piece that The University of Texas aired on my 6-piano project. It’s cool to have the school in which I’m an alumnus of recognize my efforts. I’ll give a full review of the concert in the up coming days! I’m slammed doing a defensive driving course :/




This one is going to be EPIC! It was a crazy idea that I put in motion and now it’s driving me crazy but in a good way. I have 6 pianos in my house and I’m premiering new works I wrote while in L.A. A lot of this was inspired by Invisible Cities Opera. I’m calling this party my Classical Music Kegger. You immediately know what you get when you hear it but also it’s my vision to present classical music in settings that are not as high-brow as normal concerts. People are really gravitating to the idea; I have beer and food sponsors, radio and television stations that want to interview me about the concept, etc. This party is not just about mixing kegs with classical music. It’s about giving back. I’m working with associations to bring more creative arts events to North Austin and to give back to the communities. After the concert, the pianos will be donated to community centers and schools that lack arts programs in lower income neighborhoods.
Who says classical music can’t be fun? So join us for a night of musical experimentation, celebration, at this good ol’ classic kegger! Mark November 14th in your calendar! 



I’m back from my Denmark trip.  It was intense.  Lots of meetings, speeches, and hanging with artists.  Hopefully some new collaborations will come out of this trip.  Here are a few photos from my trip to a castle outside of Copenhagen.  It was actually the first place I visited when I first went to Denmark in 2009.  To think, 7 years ago I stumbled on a place that is now considered my 2nd home and the home of some of my best friends in the world. 

* SEPTEMBER 22nd 2015 – Austin Music Video Festival Performance
I was going to type up something clever to describe the elation I felt during my recent performance of Phantasmagoria, a movement off my 2nd symphony, Neon Heaven, but Ashley Bradley at Ovrld described it and captured it on film so perfectly…
“As part of the first Austin Music Festival, hoping to stick around annually, I went out to North Door on Sept. 18 to check out Christian Bland & The RevelatorsMilezoThree Bones and a special performance of a piece from Nathan Felix‘s upcoming symphony Neon Heaven. The piece included a choir ensemble, a pianist and an electric guitar played with a violin bow. This performance was weird, in a good way. A refreshing twist to psychedelic–the choir made faint noises while playing instruments I’ve never seen before called handchimes. The performance had audience members transfixed, laying down in front of the screen showing some incredible visuals by Bob Mustachio. Three Bones also had some wicked visuals and lighting that left them in the shadows, with just glimmers reflecting on their faces and occasional smoke. Milezo and Christian Bland closed the night in their heavy fashion, putting a pretty bow to what was a really psych time.”


I love visiting San Antonio. There is something special about the developing arts scene that I can’t quite put my finger on. Austin gets all the hype but the magic that Austin use to have has migrated south to SA! Believe me! I spent a weekend kickin’ it with my buddy, Fern, this summer after I got back from Europe. Eight weeks in Europe had me missing the Texas heat and Mexican grub. Fern lives in a complex that I can best describe as an arts compound in downtown San Antonio that at times feels like a ghost town for downtown standards. It’s a dream of mine to spend a significant period of time in a place that is similar. It’s also the headquarters for Fern’s work with The Renewable Republic which specializes in solar installations. The campus is littered with modified school buses, an organic garden, a wood shop, an art gallery and a yurt in the massive back yard! They have a view from the yurt on their site in the about section. Click HERE to see it. Friday night is spent hanging in the court yard and catching up and everyone talking about projects or galleries they have coming up. All the talk is extremely inspiring. I talk about my 6-piano party and everyone gets excited except for Fern. He says he’ll never go to another party of mine because of the infamous hernia-incident from my water-balloon extravaganza over 10 years ago! You gotta hear the story from Fern. You’ll laugh your heart out!


The next morning we woke up and walked down the street to have a mexican breakfast. The meal took a few hours as new friends of someone walked in every half hour. Again the community and friendships struck a chord. It was now time to follow Fern and Jorge to check up on an installation project they finished not too long ago. I snapped a few photos of the house and spent time drinking lemonade with the owners of the house as we talked music, composing and their love for spending winters in San Antonio instead of New York! They had a beautiful home and it was a big inspiration for ideas for my current remodeling project of my house. 


Next we decided it was time to take a load off and have a few drinks. Jorge insisted we go to Gloria’s and I’m glad we did. The place smelled like it hadn’t been cleaned in half a century but it had a killer jukebox. Fern asked the waitress to bring us their three coldest beers and then blasted out old mexican folk classics. We talked about Jorge’s upcoming trip to Cuba and discussed different parts of Mexico that were great to travel to. Again it was inspiring! Despite being worn out from months on the road in Europe I was conjuring up that adventurous spirit. (Note: I went home and bought tickets to Tulum the following week for a September trip!) After Gloria’s things got out of hand. I remember being in the darkest bar/speakeasy in the world, some tasty food, going to First Friday and then tons of people partying back at Renewable Republic.




Sunday was a slow day to just recap on the night and recover…with beers of course! I was headed off to float the river and go thrifting in Wimberley but before I left Fern had to show me some of the best coffee in their hood. We walked a few blocks and what seemed like in the middle of nowhere was Merit roasting company. That’s what is fascinating about the area is there are little local shops spread out on each block that you feel like you are in a neighborhood with a strong sense of community that is not overloaded with people. Trust me it’s charming. And I know it will change. So I’m enjoying it while I can. I’ll be back in October to celebrate a gallery from another one of the Renewable artists!


* AUGUST 3RD – TACOS AND TRANNYS IN THE FIVE THREEDo you dare to enter The Five Three! The zip code so many brush off. The zip code that has yet to be gentrified in Austin. My latest exploits will chronicle the underground world of The Five Three. For starters I thought I’d visit one of the numerous taco trucks. These trucks were here before the food truck craze broke out and you can only order in Spanish at these. And be prepared for spice and authentic tastes of different regions of Mexico. You can’t find these tastes in the bland concoctions at Torchy’s, Taco Deli, etc. Arriving at One A.M. our order was placed with Al Pastor, barbacoa, and bisteck tacos, one al pastor gringa, and an agua de melon. It’s when we sat to wait for our order that we noticed a colorful circus-like atmosphere filled with white snake skinned boots with 5 inch toes, 2 tranny’s in hiked up skirts (I’d never witnessed Spanish speaking tranny’s before), enough cubic zirconium studded button-up shirts to ring the Patriots, girls wearing tight dresses with their stomachs busting through, a large woman sitting on the hood of a truck straddling a vaquero and grotesquely making noises as they fondled each other, and of course our amazing food! Tacos to-die-for prepared with freshly made tortillas. Ah the life of a composer! Which makes me realize I probably need to update everyone on my recent work as a composer and not just talk about tacos and Brian Wilson. There is a lot of good updates…
1) I went in to the studio last week to begin final mixes on Neon Heaven and I’m looking at a release date for late fall or early next year. It really depends how quickly I can get some music videos done for a splash of a release.


2) I have my first classical house concert on November 14th that will feature two new pieces I wrote for xi pianos! And it will be in The Five Three of course! You gotta come!
3) Austin Music Video Festival asked me to present a movement from Neon Heaven on Fri Sept 18th at North Door. I’ll be showcasing a performance of Phantasmagoria (hear an excerpt here – www.soundcloud.com/CurseCrossLion). And lastly
4) I’m in pre-production to start recording my 3rd album that will combine elements of opera, symphony, eastern instruments, and shoe-gazy guitar noises. Stay tuned…
* JULY 27TH 2015 – FREE ZION
I remember the first time I played it for her. I stared at the screen and kept still. As each measure passed by I wondered if she would notice what I wanted to notice. I was holding back my emotions. This was a song I worked on so many times and every time I’d choke up. I felt a warm drop ricochet between my thumb and index finger. Then a second..a third…they wouldn’t stop. I slowly turned and looked at her. Feeling exposed. Only she knew the meaning. I said nothing. With her lips quivering she mustered, “Why did you have to write about that.” And she buried her head under my arm…
Losing your hearing is never a fun thing. Especially since my work is related to music! I freaked out when I woke up today and couldn’t hear much out of my right ear. I won’t go in detail about the diagnosis but let’s just say I’ve been really bummed out. But it hit me last night. Irritated about 9 pm traffic. Driving across town. Brian Wilson’s ghost visited me. I accidentally slammed on the brakes and my elbow jerked forward and turned on my CD player. On came Pet Sounds!!! Ok ok, so Pet Sounds was already cued as I’ve listened to it at least 50 times this month as I’m studying it for my next opera recording project. But this was different. I heard it in a way I have never heard! Chills went up my spine and the hair stood up. DON’T you see! Brian Wison couldn’t hear out of his right ear so he wanted me to hear Pet Sounds how he heard it! And it’s magical. I won’t have hearing for a few days so I’m studying Pet Sounds with Brian Wilson’s ears. That led me to believe one other thing… Brian Wilson’s ghost created that 9 pm traffic because how else could I arrive at my destination right as the final note played. [AND yes I’m well aware that Brian Wilson is still alive. But who’s to say one can’t have a ghost while still alive? Besides I’m talking about today’s Brian Wilson. I’m talking out “Pet Sounds” Brian Wilson.
* JULY 15 2016 – USAHOME! 12 countries in 2.5 months (FULL ADVENTURE PICS HERE)

Czech Republic

Two amazing premieres…
Began my opera…
Lots of meetings…
Saw most of my friends…
Made new friends…
New commission…
Time to keep writing…,
And planning….
Do we have any control over what happens in life or are we just pawns in a grand scheme or a game? Or do we have control yet in hindsight justify the results of our actions as fate. Just as we have no say in where we are born do we have a say in who comes in our lives? To some degree we can force it I’m sure, but may I believe that a common energy attracts one to another? In 2011 after years of writing grants and begging any orchestra to play my first symphonic composition, I was ready to give up. Looking back, I’m really glad some second-rate Texas orchestra didn’t steal my money and put forth a half-ass performance. But it’s easier to feel comfortable when looking back but when you are in the moment, damn it can hurt. So here is a quote from Andre in one of our first email correspondences …

(NY: Left & Center photo 2012 : Portugal: Right 2015)
“I would be glad to take a look at your score and help you in any way I can. I am always looking for modern composers to work with and I would do that free of charge. I am in a place of my career where I can not say no to “score premieres”.” This was the first positive response I had received but inside I was so certain that it would fall apart. This email came in February of 2011. We did not record until May of 2012 and I’m smart enough to know that while you need that much time to plan, it’s just as likely that something can go wrong. A few snags in the road did pop up but I wouldn’t be here…


blogging about this, if all had turned out well. And we even have a successful documentary that was acquired by Gaiam TV that captures the beginning of what is now an amazing friendship. Andre is like a brother to me. We want to help each other but I feel like I owe him so much. He has given so much to me that I think about it on a weekly basis of how I can use an opportunity that comes my way, to give back to my friend. He has since moved from New York to Baltimore and now to his home land in Portugal. He invited me to write a few pieces for a new orchestra he is conducting in Fatima Portugal. So here I am in Portugal!!! Premiering new music and sharing conversations with one of my best friends. And he is such a kind soul. Ok, so he does have a potty mouth (sorry Andre but that totally makes you who you are) but he has such a generous spirit. He encourages me in my development but critiques me in a way that doesn’t allow me to become complacent in my writing and experimentation. That’s what I love about classical music is that for me it’s so new as if I was in a candy store for the first time! And then I find out there is a secret cellar below the candy store that I haven’t even scratched the surface of! So here are some photos of my trip in Portugal. I hope to release a recording of some of the music performed in the future. And I hope to give back to Andre ten fold for he was the first to give me an opportunity and give me hope that there is a path out there for my crazy dreams…


I can’t help but think of the Beatles. Of course my mom played Sgt. Peppers on repeat every night for what seemed like a year. But I can’t really remember the lyrics anymore. I became a Beach Boys fan and got tired of the Beatles. I think about Brian Wilson quite a bit and all he went through. At such an early age having such great success coupled with his past…and oh ya…drugs. Anyone that know me knows Pet Sounds trumps all. I actually popped it in recently and heard something entirely new in the lyrics! But I digress. I’m digging a hole in me. I’m digging deeper inside than I’ve explored before. Its painful. But its honest. Maybe too honest. But what happens when you keep digging? Does your shovel hit a rock and it ends there? Can you dig so deep that you can’t see the light shining in? Can you dig so deep that you can’t get out? Do you reach the core? Man, I have a feeling no matter what this is really going to hurt…
I never watched the end of ground hog day but I LOVE the movie. Does it have a happy ending? Why can’t movies have multiple endings? Or would that water down the artistic and entertainment value? What if you are stuck in a vicious cycle of life? We have it ingrained in our psyche that history repeats itself so do we have no control of our future? Will the rabbit ever win the race or does he have to become like the turtle. Its been ingrained in my psyche that I’m the rabbit and my brother is the tortoise and its becoming a cycle I want to change. Wait does the rabbit even cross the finish line in the story? I love my brother and he can win in his race in life but I’d like to win in my life on my own journey. Or at least cross the finish line…
What is going on! I am struggling inside. I was robbed in Barcelona. I can’t get the images out of my head of the people that blindsided me. I am angry at myself for letting guard down but also at these people that do this. I should forgive right? I should wish them well as I don’t know their situation right? But it is difficult. Paranoia has set in. My friend Simon whom I was with has really encouraged me in a weird New Zealand type of Zen way by not saying too much or too little. Having him around has been a blessing as I may have fallen in a dark hole. Simon is also a composer. A fantastically brilliant one might I add that I met in Bulgaria for a project in 2013. We talked about the correlation between composing and life and being in a moment that you can’t see past the fog. You can’t put aside your emotions and rationalize. I started meditating on this journey through Europe for various reasons but i feel this incident exposed that I’m still in an infantile stage. Is this a setback or check point? And I am grateful for the blessings in my life but internally I feel close to rock bottom but I am not paddling against the current. I have tossed my oars in the water and fading downstream with the current. I know I have to come to shore and build a stronger raft with a rock solid foundation. Something I should have done years ago but I’ve been afraid of the dark. Images swirl in my head and heart of what being in a black hole must feel like. Much like the images of those to men that robbed me, that are etched in my memory in the dark streets in Barcelona. The unknown can be frightening… But I know I have to let go…

* MAY 29TH 2015 – J5

Sitting at a cafe in Prague waiting to catch a bus to Munich. I don’t really have a lot to say today. Much like writing music. What’s the purpose if you have nothing to say? Notes are notes. Anyone can learn to write notes but can you learn to have something to say? I think only the world can offer that to you. I’ve had so many impressions lately as I trek from city to city but what do they all mean and are they important? I’ve journaled a lot (which is rare for me) and I started a new piece for opera. I’m considering releasing my journals alongside the music so people can get inside my true thoughts and emotions. It’d be the most honest and personal thing I’ve put out there because I’m exposing raw thoughts and emotions that most would hide. But I like real. I like knowing what my favorite artists “really” went through and what they “really” though. Besides, it’s easy to hide and be fake isn’t it? That’s what social media is for right?


I wrote them in the moment and I can reflect on them along with pictures to flush out the opera when I return home. It’s nothing crazy. Typical love, longing, loss, confusion, frightened, and ranting. Speaking of pictures, I added some photos to my Flickr because it’s really hard for me to post pictures on this blog sometimes. I suck at html…bad! But here are a few pictures and here is the link to many more – FLICKR
* MAY 25 2015 – BDAY
My birthday past and present. Today I find myself in Pristina, Kosovo.  It’s my birthday.  I’m
not big on birthdays and I usually get away from my hometown for the occasion.  But I’m

sitting here realizing the two memorable birthdays for me are ones I spent with loved ones. By far the best birthday moment for me came three years ago in Wuhan China.  I was on tour with my group, The Noise Revival Orchestra, and we had trouble at the train station. Half of the group made the train and four of us were left stranded.  We had to book a flight a few hours later and taxi it across the city just to make the flight!  We rushed and barely made it to the show.  I actually still wonder how the others members that made the train got to the venue because Wuhan was a chaotic city and few foreigners compared to Shanghai. None the less we blasted through our set with an

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amazing energy. But what came next will last with me a lifetime. I walked off stage and the   crowd called for an encore and then…the band busted out with a rock version of Happy Birthday.  The crowd joined in and some came on stage and danced.  Afterwards there was an insane line of fans wanting a photo with us and then we danced the night away!  It was so special.  And I spent it with my then girlfriend whom I had only been dating for five months (center of photo).  We were thrown in to a whirlwind of intense traveling and we realized we were at our best as travel companions.  Our theme for the night was throwing up the “W” with our hands and you can see the band demonstrating this in the photo.  In the back with a beer bottle wedged in his mouth is Tyler our drummer and translator!  Standing to the left of Anita is Vince! And on the right of the photos with his head cut off (wearing a tie) is Josh. So here I am in Kosovo.  The sun came out after weeks of the rain following me

Bill Clinton statue in Kosovo

through Europe. It’s an interesting city. The economic situation is grim but people  here talk about hope.  I met a  woman that shared with me how she love America because her children can grow up without an on going war. But you still see the remnants of the war.  So many buildings are tattered and torn. It really makes me stop and think about my life and how we all come from different environments and how they play a role in our lives.  I got choked up when the lady was expressing her feelings. And as I walked away I began to wonder what I would take home with me from this trip to Kosovo. Would it be like a great movie or book that inspires me but then also deceives my emotions?  When I get back home or back working with the orchestra in Portugal will I feel

the same or will I be distracted?  Whatever it is I know I’m changing and growing.  I feel foolish and ashamed to barely realize the important people and blessings in my life that I have taken for granted.  But that’s life right? We only get one of them and we can’t go back in time to fix things.  The trail is behind me but my decisions have surely altered my course.  But we do get second chances sometimes.  In my case I may need a fifth or sixth chance for some things.  I would at least like a last chance…

* MAY 18TH 2015 – PARIS
I’m in Paris at the moment.  I’ll be honest as I told myself I would for this blog.  I wish I was

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sharing these moments together.  But here I am alone in my thoughts.  Reflecting.  Always dreaming. Trying to accept who I am.  But anything I accept I will eventually rebel against. And so the cycle continues.  I wish to cease thought but this week I was reminded of a time when I was at a different crossroads seeking more for my musical soul.  The connection I want with someone in my experience in Paris and in life is similar to the connection I wanted in my musical journey.  I decided to take a risk.  The result?  The story is still being told.  But the beginning phases of writing a symphony despite no formal training were captured in a documentary, The Curse and the Symphony. What began as a personal dream is something I was afraid to believe could turn into a full-fledged career.  After a year long film festival run that included screenings at over

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25 film festivals and winning awards for Best Documentary and Documentary of Merit, The Curse and the Symphony is now in the hands of Gaiam, who will feature the film on their channel.  The company’s streaming video subscription service, Gaiam TV, features films dedicated to yoga, fitness, conscious media, personal growth and spirituality and most importantly it lines up with my values.  So as I dream up the next portion of my life, go visit GaiamTV.com for more information on checking out The Curse and the Symphony and other inspirational films (Gaiam TV is available on a variety of platforms including Roku, iPad, and iPhone).  And maybe next time my special someone can enjoy my adventure with me.  At least I’ll dreaming so!!!




I first came to SPOT FESTIVAL in 2010. I lived in a castle for 4 days to connect and write with songwriters from different parts of Europe (Iceland, Faroe Islands, Norway, Sweden, Denmark, US). We performed newly written songs a few days later at the festival. It was an interesting experience but less so for the music. It reemphasized and motivated me to push myself even more into orchestral explorations because I was disappointed that with so many different artists thrown together from exotic countries, that all the music and ideas were bland. I felt that I was lying to myself by saying I had interesting ideas. Plus it was a bit corny and cheesy…like summer camps can be. But what I took advantage of was being 

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at SPOT.  I made a point to meet as
many new people as I could which have now led to some of my most amazing
friendships.  Some are musicians
and music industry related but not all.
I have even helped a lot of them with artistic and logistical matters in
Austin when they have reached out.
But I have never expected anything in return, so when I received the
letter from SPOT with support to record and premiere my 2

symphony, NEON HEAVEN, I was blown away!
I remember sitting at a café in Minneapolis a few hours before my film,
The Curse and the Symphony, was going to
have it’s film premiere, not feeling particularly well.  I was stressed out about many issues
with finding a venue (wait until I blog about the venue fiasco), orchestra, and
funding for NEON HEAVEN.  Then I
got “the” letter.  Wide-eyed and
drunk with laughter I looked in the sky and sat in awe and rang up my Mom to
share the excitement.  And a lot
can fall apart or not come to fruition, but now – 14 months later here I
am.  In Denmark.  At SPOT.  Learning to let life unfold organically.  Thankful.  Excited.


And now I get to meet even more  people.   One in particular, conductor Mathias
Click for Gaffa concert review
who was the one conductor in Denmark to see a high value in my music
and  an opportunity to build something.  Of course he is a thoughtful and
wonderful person in addition to his fine conducting skills, so that makes it
even more enjoyable. I truly got to work with the orchestra.  I got to meet each one and talk
individually with them about their part.  It was so much fun to be in this setting and watching the
piece evolve.  We even laughed and
talked trivial matters just to get to know each other, which in this “classical
music” world is rare.  I often
wonder if I simply come off as annoying because I am so curious to know all the
members.  At one point a musician
expressed that they were embarrassed that they did not rehearse the piece with
perfection, but I told her she was crazy!
It’s the process I enjoy just like getting to build a friendship.



* APRIL 14TH 2015 – 2 in 1

The ebb and flow of life can be a bit confusing at times. You don’t really have time to stop and figure it out as life just keeps moving on. Here I am…dare I say…a composer! I still don’t feel like one, but having two premiere’s of symphonic works I’ve composed must mean something right? Or does it have to be by the London Philharmonic to mean something? 
Photos from the premiere of The Curse the Cross & The Lion in Chagrin, OH – Feb 14 2015
Live in the moment. Cliche? Profound? Moments come and go by the minute. That’s the beauty of them, right? Life had been stressful leading up to “Indie Orchestra Night”, an idea I have wanted to pursue for years that would blend indie singers backed by and orchestra and choir. I have always felt like it’s my duty to contribute something new to my city that has given me so much. I started The Noise Revival Orchestra as a model of this grandiose vision and I just stuck with it. 
Photos from Indie Orchestra Night in Austin TX – March 10 2015

The most rewarding part of it all.  My friends.  My family.  My fellow colleagues/musicians on stage.  The overall sentiment was one of an unexplainable magic in the air.  


Hearts & lives were truly touched. My friends responses sum it up best. Because I realize what I love about music is it opens up this platform to share stories and meet people around the world. I care about people and I cherish every friendship I have made along the way. It’s such a blessing to be in a city and world that is full of caring, creative, and passionate people that inspire one another.



Not a week goes by (2 months later) without running into someone who tells me it was amazing how we pulled off hip-hop and orchestra!? Or how Dana Falconberry made them cry. Or how they had always dreamt of hearing Shearwater songs backed with a full array orchestral instruments. And to think we are all deeply moved by something as simple yet complex as music. So here I am. Living life as a dreamer. An adventurer. A risk taker. A COMPOSER who just had two different symphonic works premiered in less than a month! And I have two more coming in Europe in May and June. Heck ya I’m excited about it because there were days when the rejections letters bore heavily. While the New York Phil isn’t knocking on my door (yet) and most of my opportunities seem self made, I really wouldn’t have it any other way. This is my adventure and like the title of my blog says…I got do it my F’in self…why? That’s right! Because nobody else is gonna to do it for me.




* MARCH 12TH 2015 – LATINO
Check out this fun interview I did while I was in Ohio last month for the premiere of my 1st symphony, The Curse the Cross & the Lion!  This originally aired on WKYC Cleveland a few Saturday’s back.  It was such a blast getting to kick it and meet Myra Rosario (host) and her producer Trina!  They were extremely sweet.  


HUGE Feature by The Austinot who interviewed me about Indie Orchestra Night, the show I’m producing featuring Texas Choral Consort plus an orchestra backing up 4 killer artists from Austin – Shearwater, Dana Falconberry, Zeale & The Rocketboys.  A movement from my 2nd symphony, NEON HEAVEN, will also premiere.  Read the full story HERE or by clicking on the image below.


*  FEBRUARY 3RD 2014 – What ever happened to Keith Van Horn?

Remember the long socks? And the glory days at Utah?  I mean, when will Utah ever be a force in NCAA basketball again? To me Keith Van Horn is synonymous with my childhood love of basketball…and Kerry Kittles…and long black socks (Note: Kittles only wore one sock high)!  LOL!  You may be asking yourself “So why Keith Van Horn?”.  Well, the third movement of my 1st symphony, The Curse the Cross & The Lion was featured on at PBS show called Daytripper.  

The episode was about the town of Van Horn!  Have you heard of Van Horn?  Well if you have ever taken the trek from Central Texas out west to California you may have missed it!  Broken Down the Walls!


I stumbled on it one night when I ran out of steam and booked into a dingy hotel room in the middle of nowhere.  I woke up to a ghost town and almost picked up a grave digging job!  Ghost towns like Van Horn are beautiful.  Now I stop every time I head west.  That’s the beauty of Texas.  The open roads and the big blue sky.  They have this junkyard out in Van Horn…also known as an “antique store” that I always go in and look at.  I love rummaging through the old books, mason jars, cactus inspired art, and their Pepsi machine from the 1950’s!  If you haven’t been to Van Horn you can learn all about it on the PBS episode of Daytriper.  And when they get to the haunted house…yep!  That’s my song. 
* JANUARY 12th 2015 – GRIND
Nothing is easy. Every day is a struggle and I often feel like I have no idea what I’m doing. Every day I get some email or call with someone canceling on me or shifting gears. I often get down when hearing any initial bad news. But I adjust. I calm down and shift gears when necessary. I don’t know if it’d be better or as gratifying to have everything fall into place the way I imagine it? All I know is there is no turning back…


Magical is the best way I can describe how my recent tour to Taiwan and Japan felt.  Here I am once again on a plane returning home.  A little worn out but feeling revitalized.  I’m already happy in life but I feel I can tackle more and that the future is even brighter.  I went all out on this tour.  I lived every moment like it was my last breath.  No regrets!  I’m getting choked up thinking about the new friends I’ve made, the random encounters in the streets of Osaka, Taipei, Tokyo, Lure, etc that I’ll remember forever, and the amazing crowds who I had the privilege of entertaining.  (Side note:  I’m also wondering why I always get choked up when I’m in the air?  I’m watching “Finding Vivian Maier” and it is warming my heart.  A must watch.  I feel even more inspired).  On that note, I have never had more fun playing live than I did this time.  Maybe I’m out of my shell.  Maybe I don’t care to please anymore.  Or maybe I just look at it less seriously and more of way to entertain to bring people together.  There is a problem though.  I’ve become addicted.  I want more.  I thought I had hung up my cleats after my 2012 China tour and then this offer to play in Taiwan and japan came out of left field. 
And now I want more.  And now I will find more.  Why can’t I be the rock n roll composer?  I can rock out at festivals a few times a year as a break from orchestral composing, can’t I?  Dream big right?!!!  You never know where it will get ya!  My trip felt like a dream.  There is no doubt I get to see unique parts of new countries and cultures as a touring musician more so than a tourist/visitor.  Anyone can travel but not everyone gets to get sucked into whirlwind of an adventure like you do when you tour.  And this one all began in Taichung, Taiwan. 
Before this tour the biggest crowd I had played to was about 400-500 on a handful of occasions.  But even those shows weren’t as fun as shows I’ve played to 200 sweaty kids jammed in club and dancing their tails off.  Quality over quantity right?  Mmmmm  maybe.   But what if you can get both!?  I just did the jump from playing for 500 to 30,000 and then 50,000 the very next night!  Man what a rush.  I don’t care how great an intimate crowd can be. It pales in comparison to the roar of 50,000 strong!  I stood at the edge of the stage, pumped my fist in the air, took a deep breath and soaked in the energy of that roar.  I still have goose bumps.  I still remember the crowds surfers going up and thinking to myself WOW!  I use to crowd surf at festivals and now people are crowd surfing to my music!!!  And then at the end, the crowd rushed the stage and we truly danced the night away during our encore.  I thought the stage was going to cave in!   I love you Taichung!!!  My heart will always remember you as the first.  But…you will not be the last…
It has all come together. Screw the serious indie bull shit i tried so hard to shove down peoples throats when i was younger. I found my audience. I can compose for orchestra when I want to get serious but when I’m on a stage I’m not a musician. I’m an entertainer. I don’t know why it took me so long to figure that out! Something just comes over me. Anyone can play songs. But I now enjoy interacting and getting the crowd involved because I love having a crowd at my fingertips and excited to see what’s up my sleeve. I don’t even know what’s up my sleeve. Its all improv which is scary when I sit back and actually think about it.


I remember walking outside of Osaka at maybe 6ish in the morning one time and stillness around me. The moon was gorgeous and every step echoed of the covered passage ways. I could smell something cooking afar. A smile and a deep breath made for a beautiful memory. And the culture in Japan was beautiful and rich. The people are beautiful in this respectful sorta way. I need more. So what is next? I need to let this soak in. It could be another trip I look back at as simply being a fun adventure but I think it has the potential to be a trip that alters the course of my life when all is said and done. Too many special moments happened on this trip that I’ll never forget. Ya know? The ones that seem to be part of your destiny. The ones your gut tells you are happening for a reason.

For now I have a full plate!  Both my symphonies are being performed in 2015 in the USA and abroad!   Spring will find me in Portugal and Denmark and then summer in Paris.  But what does any of it really mean?  Who cares what we do.  Does it mean anything?  Deep down it’s funny because I’m that same 14 yr old shy, awkward, scared boy.  But why?  I guess im still figuring out that part. For now ill excuse myself by saying it’s me respecting the moment.  But none the less, somehow I have to find time to get back to Osaka for a significant amount of time.  There is something cool happening in that city and I need my finger on the pulse!

Just a quick update! I thought I’d have more time to post more often but things have been insane. Here are a few photos of the festivals we have played. And wow what amazing food in both Taiwan and Japan!

SUMMER 2014 (Blog Post 1)
A teacher once told me that if you you are thinking something during class, chances are that many others are thinking the same thing. Well I can’t really seem to find a composer that thinks the same way as I am thinking.
I read on every damn composer’s site that they are an “award winning” composer and paint this picture of success. Then you listen to what they are doing and…
Well I’ve never won an award for anything besides a creative writing contest in high school that my journalism teacher entered me in, without telling me. I threw away the award..
And don’t get me wrong, I’ve definitely experienced some amazing things in life because of music so it really paid off to learn a few instruments instruments! Although now people tell me that I have certain successes because of my personality? WTF! I guess I have my moments, because I certainly love people and I love listening to stories. I think I have my moments where I really connect with people because I’m also certain there is a list of people that would say my personality does not attract people but more-so turns them off.
Back to music…so eventually I learned that any ole’ Joe can pick up a guitar. That’s why I hated playing guitar once I was in college. I needed a new fix. I hit the road touring the U.S. with my brother and best friends in a tribute to the D.I.Y touring culture of the 80’s. This was a blast and I highly recommend this to anyone coming out of college. Why get a job when you can travel, play music, get in trouble, have adventures, and see all the unique pockets our country has to offer. After 3 or so years o this I started growing and transitioning into a cinematic sound and outgrew our little punk band. I started a large orchestra based band and eventually started composing for film and now symphony orchestra. It took around 8 years to make that transition and even now I’m facing new challenges. The challenge of academia. Maybe I’m too amateur? But it’s comparable to being in the twilight zone or in a bar of “independent” minded people all wearing the same black outfits. I mean, every composer I meet that has gone through the academic route in learning composition thinks, acts, and sounds the same. They have to know this right? I even hear the same with film composing in that the music or sounds composers use as they sound obviously sampled and will eventually sound dated.
Maybe everyone has it figured out but I don’t. I’m still on the journey but maybe one day I can look back and truly answer that question. I hope with this blog that someone else out there can benefit from what I have to say. Although I’m not really sure what I have to say. But who cares. It’s the wild wild west out there and the world keeps spinning. Someone else might have the deal or the money or the popularity but if you read between the lines I just described Milli Vanilli, Backstreet Boys, David Cassidy, etc! Make the music and do everything yourself…
I’ll rant here and there to keep things spicy. I tend to stick my foot in mouth but sometimes I’ll also try to be politically correct just in case I decide to run for president one day. Don’t expect perfect punctuation but de expect a ton of run-ons! I’m about producing and less about waiting until something is perfect. That’s why my family calls me the rabbit. Oh, and I meant what I said about loving stories! So if you actually scroll this far and want to tell me your story, please do! I would love to hear from you…